Alyss: overcoming obstacle A - Part I

another note from Alyss:
   a lot has been going on lately and um, the way things are going i know it's gonna go from a 'lot' to a lot LOT soon enough. so i figured it's time i need to shuffle my priorities and delete some of the so-called ones from my list.
   meet obstacle A, the first one that needs to be shoved off.
Obstacle A has been tottering on the brink of removal for one entire year. he's a very insistent little thing who is extremely hard to get rid off. just when you think he's gone, someone taps you on the shoulder and there you go! it's A again.
   but this time, things are gonna be different. drastically different. (oh, yes)
firstly, i'm starting off on a positive foot. i'm not heartbroken like i used to be in my previous attempts. i don't feel weighed down by the things i lack. pssshh, no way.
   i'm happy.
i'm happy that i know he's amazing. i'm happy to think i'll be able to limit our relationship to what it is now. i'm happy to be smart enough to walk away before it's too late, before watching him walk away with (a luckier) someone else can affect me. this time, i'm really going to let it all go. i've pined for him long enough. ONE YEAR. yeah. i know he isn't ever gonna reciprocate these feelings so this is the smartest option i have, right?
   i know this will work. i can feel the change in my bones already. but there's one thing that'll never change - he'll always be my first 'real love'. (:

the crazy rantings of a lovelorn damsel: Part VI

five pictures i randomly feel like posting

i'm being a little too emo lately, am i not?

i think i liked her best in Breakfast at Tiffany's. ^^

this is one of the best parts of being a girl :D

Adam Levine - you are HOT.

but you, my love, are the hottest. ♥

you're not the only one, hun

  for some very weird inexplicable reason people around tend to randomly confide in me. and... i guess that's a good thing...? i don't know. but i'll admit, i don't mind. in fact, it kinda even feels nice knowing that people feel better when they tell me things. it's a NICE feeling. ^^ here's something which happened today:
  meet Keira (name changed to protect privacy). she's my lab partner in Chem. a normal, everyday girl who is... guess what? yes, in love. *rolls eyes* extract from our conversation today:

"it's weird, you know. things are s'posed to wear off with time, right? but... i don't know. it's different with him. in the beginning, i needed to talk to him at least once in 2-3 weeks or something. some time later, once a week. and now? forget a week, even a DAY seems like ages! i can't get through without seeing him like once in 2-3 DAYS at least. it's crazy! is this even normal? god, i miss him so much."

  i just smiled, and told her she'd already done the NaOH test, and she was s'posed to add NH₄OH now, NOT NaOH again. what i didn't tell her was - dearest, you're not crazy. i know exactly what you mean.

people are funny (x

here's something i picked up in a bus on my way back home. the people in concern weren't exactly aware i was listening, they thought i was lost in my own world - which i should've been (and usually am) but oh i don't know, i just couldn't help but listen. so anyway, i've altered their names to protect their privacy. sorry guys, but i found this conversation highly entertaining and quite hilarious.

Give a girl the right shoes and she can conquer the world.

here's a little treat for every girl out there. feast your eyes, ladies! make believe you could slip your pretty little feet into them right now...

Jon and Leanne

   hi. i'm Leanne. i'm a 16 year old girl, five feet nine. luscious curly brown hair, soulful hazel eyes. I've got creamy white skin and a nose so perfect you'd kill for it. dazzling smile, killer hips. smooth well-rounded thighs, slim long legs. i love pretty shoes, polka dotted things, my dog Mr. O, cheeseburgers and Josh Duhamel. i'm going out with the most popular guy in school, Jon.
oh, Jon. ♥
6ft. tall. he's got jet black hair that's always a mess. sparkling green eyes coupled with a mischievous grin that makes hearts race. star footballer, math genius, prime candidate for future school Head Boy. and he loves me, adores me. we're the most talked about couple in high school, the most envied. what wouldn't all those girls give to be in my shoes - running their fingers through his hair, knowing what his lips feel like on mine... what wouldn't all those guys give to be the one holding me close, whispering wonderful things in my ear...
we're perfect, Jon & I. we are fucking perfect.

the crazy rantings of a lovelorn damsel

   <this one's for all those who've loved someone who's well... on a different level. you know what i mean, don't you?>

    You.
     You came into my life and stole my heart. You made me the happiest girl on the planet. You were my Prince Charming. You made my life seem like a fairytale, made me go weak at the knees, you were the reason why I got butterflies in my stomach... you did every single one of those clichéd things Prince Charmings ought to do.
     I spent all my time thinking of you, dreaming.. smiling at the thought of you... it was always you, you & you. I began seeing you everywhere, in all the things I did, all around me. You were my drug, my ecstasy. I couldn't imagine life without you.

I couldn't live without you.

     As time flew by and I began to fully realize just how amazing you are, I know we can never be together. You're far too good, far too wonderful, far too amazing to love someone like me. And although not in this world, I do hope that in the next, maybe we'll meet again. And you'll sweep me off my feet just like you have now and I will be a better person. Someone worthy of you, someone capable of winning your heart.

And THEN you'll love me, won't you?

     I'm ready to wait. Even if it's for a decade, a century, a lifetime. As long as I can have you with me in the end, I'm willing to wait forever.
 
    But for now, let's make believe that I am someone worthy of you. Let's make believe that you love me like I love you. Let's make believe that we're one. Together. Forever.

Luke, Luke, OH LUKE!!

*this should've been posted nearly a week back but i've been really busy lately so my apologies.*
on the 26th of March there i was, crying my eyes out.
why?
ENGLAND HAD CRASHED OUT OF THE WC.
    truth be told, i'm the most anti-cricket person on the planet. it's the most monotonous, pointless game i've ever come across. i'd rather watch WWE than watch a game of cricket and boy, you do NOT know how much i detest WWE. the worst part? THERE ISN'T A SINGLE HOT CRICKETER ON THE PLANET.

or so i thought.