Detox!

   i logged in today, more than a year later, to find my dashboard flooded with new posts put up by the blogs I've subscribed to. and then i realized - even though i had slipped into stagnancy over the year, the world had gone on.
   it's not just this blog, but a lot of things that i have left behind in 2012. there are a lot of things i have given up on because of a mental block stemming from lack of confidence, as well as interest. i feel like 2013, although beautiful in some aspects, has been a waste of a year. it's turned me into one of those people who dream big, but never lift a finger to make those big dreams turn into reality. and it doesn't work that way. you can't make a dream come to life if you don't work for it!
 "A dream doesn't become reality through magic. It takes sweat, determination and hard work."

~ Colin Powell

   where i stand now, on the first day of this brand new year, prepping for the exams that will decide my career and the rest of my life i know nothing about what's in store for me 7 months from now, in August, when i get to start a new college i.e if i even get into any. all i have is these 5 months vaguely outlined for me with exam schedules put up, and the constant reminder that ever hour of these months spent without studying is a waste.
    yes, 2014 is the most significant and crucial year of my life. 2014 is when everything changes, it's the time to be a completely new person. it's the first big chance i get to begin building my dream life. i simply cannot afford to let it go to waste like 2013.
    so after a lot of thought, and a long conversation with one of my best friends along with a little whimsical reading of the Piscean horoscope for this year :P i have reached the conclusion that the first step to reinventing myself this year is -
DETOX.
Detoxification (abbrev.: detox) n.

1. the metabolic process by which toxins are changed into less toxic or more readily excreted substances.

2. the process of withdrawing a person from dependence on a habituating drug.

In my book:

Detoxification (abbrev.: detox) n.

A process of psychological cleansing in which you

1. Rid yourself of habits you dislike

2. Discard "frenemies" (the people you secretly despise) and other people who affect you negatively

3. Bring back old habits that once made your mind a better place

4. Consciously put in the effort to fulfil your goals

5. Give yourself reason to love yourself

    i think it's a pretty good plan, the objectives being fairly simple. the only hitch that i may have to deal with - and mind you it is a big one - is getting the plan into motion first, and then sticking to it. 2013 has spoilt me. it's made me the kind who lazes around all day looking for the shortcuts and easier ways to make it through life. I'm going to need a good shaking up to get back to form.

my main goals for the year are plain and straightforward.

1. Get into one of the following institutions

 - AIIMS, Delhi

 - JIPMER, Pondicherry

 - CMC, Vellore

 - Grant Medical College, Mumbai

2. Lose a lot of weight, get into shape, and become really really pretty! (yes it may seem like a very superficial goal, but i won't lie - it means a lot to me.)

Plan Detox feels like a really good way to get things done. I've got my fingers crossed, hoping i can make it work.

so here's to a new plan, a new year, and hopefully a new life!

 

PS: if i stick to my plan you'll be seeing a lot more of my posts because no. 3 under my aims for detox involves blogging once more.

five things i want right now

my brother brought this adorable little Kittycat home on Monday. the tiny furball was all cold and scared and lost in this big, big world. my mum is very, VERY anti-pets. anywho, we managed to coax her into letting us keep Kittycat till i get back to school. next week i'll be taking her to school where she'll be taken care of by the boarders. I WANT HER TO STAYYYYYY! <3

i have a thing for redheads and curls.

the weather just makes me yearrrrrrn for the warmest possible mug of hot chocolate. with lots, and LOTS of chocolate!

i miss that feeling of not knowing what the next book is going to bring, having to wait and wait for Rowling to work her magic again, looking forward to another journey through that world again. but it's all over now. and even if i do go back and read the series all over again (for the zillionth time now), it just won't be like the first time. i want to go back to the time when i first read Philosopher's Stone. i want to go back to the time when i first fell in love with Harry Potter.

it's nice and catchy. catchier than usual Coldplay music. i like it. (:

oh, and for anyone who's wondering about the meaning of  'Mylo Xyloto', here's what Chris Martin had to say (although it really doesn't shed enough light on the meaning):

"Music comes from a place we don't know," Martin told the New York Times. "It sort of comes through the fingers and toes," he continued (not sure about that, but he would know better than most). "So we came up with the idea of, what if you had musical digits, like xylo toes?" 

When pressed about 'Mylo', he responded, "It's just a great name. For anything."

five things i want right now

bubbles

 

 pretty, happy nail polish

to be a butterfly

 a yellow Beatle

Robert Downey Jr.

FLIPPED!

   my exams start on Friday but no, that didn't stop me from watching a whole bunch of random (romantic) movies and wasting all my time.
most of them were pretty forgettable, somehow this stayed with me:

FLIPPED.

when life goes bleh: Part II

   when life goes bleh, you read soppy romantic novels a.k.a a Nicholas Sparks' piece, and watch soppy romantic movies a.k.a a movie based on a Nicholas Sparks' piece.
   my pick today was The Notebook (for the zillionth time).

 i read it AND watched the movie (corniness much?) but anyway, they had the desired effect: reduced to me to a sniffly, puffy-eyed, in-love-with-love-but-oh-so-lonely-girl (well, actually i am that most of the time, minus the sniffling and puffiness of eyes).
   here are the bits that got to me the most:

#epic: II

ALL HAIL THE BRADLEY COOPER!

in dire need of a Portkey to:

a 30 Seconds To Mars concert.